Catching Up

My gosh, I haven't blogged in so long. It's almost embarrassing, considering that I like to blog pretty much every day. I guess I've been pre-occupied with work, Gman and life in general.

Lately I've been feeling.....hmmmmm.....centered but a little left of center. Gman is testing in school again and trying to manipulate all of his teachers, his dad and me. I busted him and figured out his game, much to his chagrin. lol I met with all 3 of his teachers this week to let them know what's going on and discuss some methods of solving the problem.

One of the meetings I was really dreading because he strikes me as a beer drinking, football loving, T.V. watching egomaniac. He has this "better than you" attitude and it's a little intimidating to me. I like to think of all my co-workers as peers but this teacher........I dunno. As a co-worker I don't have much respect for him. But that's another story. I'm just glad that we got everything fixed and are on the right track again. It will be interesting to see if this teacher follows the problem solving steps we set up at the meeting.

On a funnier note. Gman hates being boxed in because then he knows he can't lie his way out of homework and all that good stuff. It makes me laugh because every year he seems so surprised that he's gotten busted, but he's been doing this since kindergarten. He gets busted every year and we clamp it down on him then he gets in to doing what he is supposed to do. It kind of makes me laugh. He gets so mad when I say, let's see the assignment notebook and let's see the completed homework. Now I've made those things his ticket to fun at night. No assignment notebook, no friends, no going out for awhile, no T.V., desert, or gameboy. hahahaha He cracks me up. Once that happens he never forgets anything. Go figure. Selective memory.

Dating lately has been a fiasco as usual. I don't know if I'm just afraid to commit to someone or if they are really as bad as I think they are. For some reason, every guy I go out with thinks I want to have sex on the first date. Is that what women in the online dating world are doing to get attention? It's just not my style to jump in to bed with some guy I just met...no matter how attractive he is. Then, there must still be this idea of "no means yes" for guys. I met a guy a few weeks ago that I really liked but he was just too damned pushy and wouldn't take no for an answer on the first date. He did a few inappropriate things and the night ended. That in and of itself was a strike but I decided to give him more of a chance. The clincher was that he'd invite me over to his place almost every night for the next week instead of asking me out on a date. Do ya think I'm a desperate floozy dude? I gave him the boot via email. I didn't think he deserved a phone call after treating me like that.

I don't know if guys think that because I'm a big girl, I have trouble finding dates and I'm desperate. However that is very much not the case. I haven't ever really had a hard time finding guys to go out with and now that I realize that I can thumb my nose at the guys who have less than desirable character flaws.

On a brighter dating note. I've been at the grocery store almost every day looking for the hottie cop that works there sometimes. A little back history. His first job is that he's a sherriff's deputy. I met him 4 years ago or maybe even longer ago when I was a security officer for an apartment complex that was being built. Mr. Hottie Cop would come to the complex to do his morning paperwork and one morning we got talking. We became fast friends. There was some flirting but he was married and I was in a serious relationship so the flirting remained innocent.

Somewhere around a year ago we ran in to each other at his moonlighting job as an off duty officer at the grocery store a few blocks from my apartment. Yippeee. I reintroduced myself to him and he remembered me. There was lots of flirting and the chemistry was still there. I thought he was still married so I didn't do any touching back.

A few weeks ago I found out he has been divorced for 4 years. YAYYYY! He did some overt flirting which I was oblivious to until I got in my car and was driving and then did the whole DUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH thing. Now, just about every day I think of something I need to buy at that grocery store and I look for him. However he hasn't been there when I have been. So after an entire month of this, I finally did what any stalker worth her salt would do. I called the store and asked when he is working again. Apparently he had worked that day....the one day I didn't go in, and she told me he's working again today. Double YAYYYY! I'm nervous and excited to see him again. A guy friend gave me a pointer of what to do to let him know I'm interested since I totally blew it with him last time. I fully intend to let him know I'm interested today. :o)

After my grocery shopping adventure, Gman and I are going to go camping overnight. He's invited a school buddy along. I like it when he brings friends because it's a great social practice experience for him. When it's still in the upper 70's in October we take advantage of it. I hope the winter is as mild. That will make recess duty so much more pleasant.

The job is going well right now. I really love my schedule this year and I really love the kids that I have in the low reading group. They are all just really great kids. It's funny...not one of them annoy me on a daily basis. They are an interesting group. They are either all angels on a particular day or they are all acting up on a particular day. It's kind of weird. Yesterday was a challenging day. They were all talkative and squirrelly. It was pretty cool though because a couple of girls in a higher reading class told me they wished they were in my reading group. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. I always try to make them feel good that they are with their teacher by telling them I'm mean but they never believe me. lol
It feels so good that I am doing what I love and what God intended for me to do in my life. My only regret is that I've fought it for so long because of the lack of money you make. The thing I didn't realize before is that it's not all about the money. It's about loving your job and your job not seeming like work. There's no amount of money that can make up for loving what you do.

I remember being at a weekend seminar at school a few years ago and the guy saying that going to work should be like going out for a Saturday night. If you don't LOVE what you do, then why are you there? I couldn't agree with him more. When I was in the corporate world I was miserable. It wasn't for me. I'm too dang social to sit at a cubicle and work all day long. I'm much better at talking to students, helping them excel, giving compliments, talking to teachers, and socializing all day. I often find myself thinking...."I can't believe I get paid to do this!" That is the ultimate in satisfaction. (even though the pay isn't so great)

Hmmm, what else should I write about? I guess since the writing isn't flowing, I'll close for now. I need to get some laundry and dishes done anyway.