Oh BOB, I've been mourning you so. Ours is the longest relationship I've ever had and I miss having you around. You were so important to me.
Our late night rendevous meant so much. You kept me at home and safe in your company. You never complained when I didn't want or need you for a long time. Nor did you complain when I needed you all the time.
You had a few falls but you always weathered them nicely. You were like a chameleon. Your brown and black tiger stripes blended in nicely with my nightstand. I can't believe that when you and I first met, I wanted nothing to do with you. Life without you is so much less.
How will I ever replace you? I feel so much guilt, BOB, that you are gone and that I want another so quickly, but you made my life bearable during the in between times...and there have been many.
Oh the things I loved about you. You never left the toilet seat up. You never hung around longer than I wanted you to. You were always there for me...so strong and so true. There was never a time that you disappeared for days at a time. I always knew where you were. You never cheated or saw another, I was your only one. You never complained about my bedroom when it was messy, you loved me and accepted me for who I am..always. God bless you for not having socks to leave on the floor or for leaving a wet spot on my side of the bed. Oh how I loved you.
However, I'm just not sure how to dispose of your body. Your heart died but the rest of you is still good. I certainly can't throw you in the trash...that would be a bio-hazard. Perhaps a proper burial is in order for you. I will never forget you dearest BOB and I'm sorry I have to find a replacement for you so soon. You will always be my first and the one I loved the most.
RIP BOB.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Rain....Rain......RAINNNN
I love rain, we need rain but I'm so disappointed that it's raining this morning. I was going to go for an outside morning walk and unless I want a shower to go along with my morning walk, I can't go. I guess I could do my walking video, but somehow my ambition has now been sucked out of me. Darn!!
Tonight I'm running to the rec center to pick up a fall schedule and get a punch card. Next week water aerobics starts. Yippee!! I'm going to try to start working out 5 days a week. I need to start working out 5 days a week and even more.
Maybe that will cure this energy crisis I'm having. I often wonder if my thyroid medication is still too low. I've never had a prolonged energy dive like this...even when I had my tumor and cancer. I've always been able to find a reserve of energy deep within me, but lately all I want to do is sleep. I wish my enocrinologist would check my blood more often than every 3 mos. I wonder if I should go back to my GP and see if he checks it more often.
Anyway, I'm going to force myself to start working out right after work every single day. I'll probably start leaving Gman home once water aerobics starts and see how he does. He's usually ok if I leave him for an hour or so. I'll check with him first and, of course, he'll say, "I can stay home by myself mom." I do know I'll hurry home after swimming instead of hanging around and talking to the girls at class.
It's going to be good to be on a regular workout schedule again.
Tonight I'm running to the rec center to pick up a fall schedule and get a punch card. Next week water aerobics starts. Yippee!! I'm going to try to start working out 5 days a week. I need to start working out 5 days a week and even more.
Maybe that will cure this energy crisis I'm having. I often wonder if my thyroid medication is still too low. I've never had a prolonged energy dive like this...even when I had my tumor and cancer. I've always been able to find a reserve of energy deep within me, but lately all I want to do is sleep. I wish my enocrinologist would check my blood more often than every 3 mos. I wonder if I should go back to my GP and see if he checks it more often.
Anyway, I'm going to force myself to start working out right after work every single day. I'll probably start leaving Gman home once water aerobics starts and see how he does. He's usually ok if I leave him for an hour or so. I'll check with him first and, of course, he'll say, "I can stay home by myself mom." I do know I'll hurry home after swimming instead of hanging around and talking to the girls at class.
It's going to be good to be on a regular workout schedule again.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Can a nose really contain that much?
OK, I seriously am sick of fall allergies. I spend approximately 1.25 hours outside for duty at school every day and it was a windy one. My allergies are worse tonight than they were last night, if that is even possible. The side of the nose I couldn't breathe through last night is clear but now I can't breath out of the other side and my ears are plugged. The only bright spot is that I don't have the headache to go with it.
Ghostbusters is just finishing up for the umpteenth time in the past month. Gman had some friends over tonight. They are good girls and they seemed to have a good time. Their mom let them stay until the movie was over but I told them they had to go home at 9:10. I guess they are in the 4th and 5th grade, so that's probably alright.
Gregory has 2 days until his big dancing gig at the teacher administration center. He's been practicing every night for the last two weeks and he's really excited. I will meet them all before school and ride there to help chaperone and also to see Gman dance. I'm so proud of him. He's so very talented when it comes to musical things and I'm also proud of him because his school year has gotten off to a great start! He seems to actually be making some friends finally and I'm so happy for him. I know that's difficult for him and I know he hates all the therapy he's had to do but I can finally see that it's making a difference for him and that maybe he'll be able to find a way past his disability with my hard work with him. He's so much like his dad that I'm happy to be in his life, not only because I'm his mother, but also because he can see what an easy going person with a great sense of humor (me) is like and how they act as well as an extremely structured person(his dad). I think he's getting the best of both worlds. I just wish I was more organized.
If I could treat myself for one year, I would treat myself to a housekeeper. I'm often so exhausted at night when I get home that no housework gets done. I try to do a little bit each night to stay caught up but nights like tonight I will crash on the couch and take a nap. Ughh....that being tired really sucks.
I think I'm going to go out for a walk here in a little bit and see if I can get some energy by walking.
All in all it was a great day though. I'm looking forward to the weekend and meeting up with some friends that I haven't seen in awhile. Next weekend, I think Gman and I might do a little camping. We were going to camp in mom's back yard last weekend in Watertown, however it was a little too nippy so we camped out on the living room floor instead. Try doing that when you're on the back side of your 30's. hahahahaha.
I'm off to bed. Here's hoping my nose well runs dry tonight. I'm ready for allergy season to be over. blahhh
Ghostbusters is just finishing up for the umpteenth time in the past month. Gman had some friends over tonight. They are good girls and they seemed to have a good time. Their mom let them stay until the movie was over but I told them they had to go home at 9:10. I guess they are in the 4th and 5th grade, so that's probably alright.
Gregory has 2 days until his big dancing gig at the teacher administration center. He's been practicing every night for the last two weeks and he's really excited. I will meet them all before school and ride there to help chaperone and also to see Gman dance. I'm so proud of him. He's so very talented when it comes to musical things and I'm also proud of him because his school year has gotten off to a great start! He seems to actually be making some friends finally and I'm so happy for him. I know that's difficult for him and I know he hates all the therapy he's had to do but I can finally see that it's making a difference for him and that maybe he'll be able to find a way past his disability with my hard work with him. He's so much like his dad that I'm happy to be in his life, not only because I'm his mother, but also because he can see what an easy going person with a great sense of humor (me) is like and how they act as well as an extremely structured person(his dad). I think he's getting the best of both worlds. I just wish I was more organized.
If I could treat myself for one year, I would treat myself to a housekeeper. I'm often so exhausted at night when I get home that no housework gets done. I try to do a little bit each night to stay caught up but nights like tonight I will crash on the couch and take a nap. Ughh....that being tired really sucks.
I think I'm going to go out for a walk here in a little bit and see if I can get some energy by walking.
All in all it was a great day though. I'm looking forward to the weekend and meeting up with some friends that I haven't seen in awhile. Next weekend, I think Gman and I might do a little camping. We were going to camp in mom's back yard last weekend in Watertown, however it was a little too nippy so we camped out on the living room floor instead. Try doing that when you're on the back side of your 30's. hahahahaha.
I'm off to bed. Here's hoping my nose well runs dry tonight. I'm ready for allergy season to be over. blahhh
Yes, it's war!!
Ok, this has to stop. I'm convinced my head is going to explode today. I HATE FALL ALLERGIES. Last night the left side of my nose was dripping constantly and by bedtime I ended up twisting up a Kleenex and simply sticking it in there to soak everything up. This morning I woke up with a whopper of a headache. I wanted to go out for my morning walk, but it hurts to even move. OWEEE!
I wonder if it's because I was in South Dakota over the weekend and exposed to new allergens or if it's just regular old fall allergies from Nebraska? I'm going to drug up on some major decongestants and make sure I take Zyrtec then hope for the best for today.
Gman was home sick from school on Monday but he still had homework from the weekend to do. He had refused to do it. I gave him 4 hours to do his homework on Monday night and he dallied the time away. I finally let him go to bed and decided that I'd talk to his teacher on Tuesday morning when I see her.
I'm sure the worst thing for Gman having his mother work at the same school he does, is that he can't get away with ANYTHING with his teachers. I talked to his teacher and explained the situation to her. I told her to "do anything you need to" as a consequence for not doing his homework.
I have my lunch at roughly the same time as his teacher. So we chatted when she came in to the lounge and she told me he tried to give her a story about how "he had no time to do his homework". She told me she said, "Save it Gregory, I already talked to your mom and your story doesn't match hers."
Oh, to have been a mouse in the corner and had a good look at his face when he got busted. We were all chuckling about it in the lounge. She gave him what his consequences would be and told me what they would be. I told her that I had decided he would have nothing fun and no "after school chill" time last night until his homework was done. It's an amazing thing....he was finished with his homework in 30 minutes. It took him 4 hours to write 4 sentences and 30 minutes to do the other 20. Hmmmm. Little turkey.
I have to say that I'm dreading middle school a little bit. As he's getting older, he's finding more loopholes in and out of things. He's gotten good at manipulating his world. I won't be able to keep such a close eye when he's in middle school. I just hope that we are able to adjust his IEP so that he's able to keep up better. Not less school work, just different tools for him because writing is such a challenge for him. I was thinking the other day, "How is he going to take notes in lectures next year on?" I need to talk to his doctor about these concerns. Sometimes I still feel like I'm clueless when it comes to his Asperger's.
I know I do a good job as his mother but, it's getting harder and harder to stay a step ahead of him.
On a brighter note, he's very excited about his ballroom dancing opportunity at the teacher admin center. I watched the last few minutes of practice last night and all of the kids looked so great doing it. I took Gman shopping for some nice clothing that fits because he's outgrown everything since Christmas. I sent him off shopping for some good pants and a tie. I had bought a new shirt earlier, so that was taken care of. He found some pants that look fabulous and an awesome tie! He has great taste in clothing and he's getting good at finding deals. The "Super Clark Challenges" work wonders with him.
What's a "Super Clark Challenge" you say? Well he used to argue with me about clothing because usually the budget is so tight that I would tell him what he had to get. Guess how well that went over? So I decided to change it up a little. I still have the control over the money but I give him control of his own shopping. I tell him "Your Super Clark Challenge tonight is that you have $30 to spend on two pairs of jeans and a shirt. Go shopping!!"
This serves 2 purposes. The first purpose is that it gives him control over what he buys and it also gives him an education on making his money stretch. The second is that I can shop in peace!! Sweeeet. He always looks at sales and the clearance racks. He knows that if he saves money in one place, he can maybe buy something extra. More than once he's found what he needed and came in way under budget and wanted something extra so asked if he could get that. My budget was $30 so if he wants something more to add up to $30, how can I refuse him that? He's a smart shopper! I love it. Sometimes God gives me strokes of sheer brilliance and that was one of the things he gave me.
For Gregory and his disability, it's all about having control. Thank goodness I'm not a control freak because this relationship could never work so well otherwise. I try to find ways to give him control of his own life. I think he really likes having some control and really, he should have some control over himself.
Alright, time to get ready for work. We are going to walk today. Yipppppeeeee!!! Tonight I'm signing up at the rec center and I'm going to start working out every night after work. I'm going to see about a tai chi class or yoga..not sure which yet. I'd also like to pick belly dancing back up again. Will have to see. Weight lifting and toning first!!!
I wonder if it's because I was in South Dakota over the weekend and exposed to new allergens or if it's just regular old fall allergies from Nebraska? I'm going to drug up on some major decongestants and make sure I take Zyrtec then hope for the best for today.
Gman was home sick from school on Monday but he still had homework from the weekend to do. He had refused to do it. I gave him 4 hours to do his homework on Monday night and he dallied the time away. I finally let him go to bed and decided that I'd talk to his teacher on Tuesday morning when I see her.
I'm sure the worst thing for Gman having his mother work at the same school he does, is that he can't get away with ANYTHING with his teachers. I talked to his teacher and explained the situation to her. I told her to "do anything you need to" as a consequence for not doing his homework.
I have my lunch at roughly the same time as his teacher. So we chatted when she came in to the lounge and she told me he tried to give her a story about how "he had no time to do his homework". She told me she said, "Save it Gregory, I already talked to your mom and your story doesn't match hers."
Oh, to have been a mouse in the corner and had a good look at his face when he got busted. We were all chuckling about it in the lounge. She gave him what his consequences would be and told me what they would be. I told her that I had decided he would have nothing fun and no "after school chill" time last night until his homework was done. It's an amazing thing....he was finished with his homework in 30 minutes. It took him 4 hours to write 4 sentences and 30 minutes to do the other 20. Hmmmm. Little turkey.
I have to say that I'm dreading middle school a little bit. As he's getting older, he's finding more loopholes in and out of things. He's gotten good at manipulating his world. I won't be able to keep such a close eye when he's in middle school. I just hope that we are able to adjust his IEP so that he's able to keep up better. Not less school work, just different tools for him because writing is such a challenge for him. I was thinking the other day, "How is he going to take notes in lectures next year on?" I need to talk to his doctor about these concerns. Sometimes I still feel like I'm clueless when it comes to his Asperger's.
I know I do a good job as his mother but, it's getting harder and harder to stay a step ahead of him.
On a brighter note, he's very excited about his ballroom dancing opportunity at the teacher admin center. I watched the last few minutes of practice last night and all of the kids looked so great doing it. I took Gman shopping for some nice clothing that fits because he's outgrown everything since Christmas. I sent him off shopping for some good pants and a tie. I had bought a new shirt earlier, so that was taken care of. He found some pants that look fabulous and an awesome tie! He has great taste in clothing and he's getting good at finding deals. The "Super Clark Challenges" work wonders with him.
What's a "Super Clark Challenge" you say? Well he used to argue with me about clothing because usually the budget is so tight that I would tell him what he had to get. Guess how well that went over? So I decided to change it up a little. I still have the control over the money but I give him control of his own shopping. I tell him "Your Super Clark Challenge tonight is that you have $30 to spend on two pairs of jeans and a shirt. Go shopping!!"
This serves 2 purposes. The first purpose is that it gives him control over what he buys and it also gives him an education on making his money stretch. The second is that I can shop in peace!! Sweeeet. He always looks at sales and the clearance racks. He knows that if he saves money in one place, he can maybe buy something extra. More than once he's found what he needed and came in way under budget and wanted something extra so asked if he could get that. My budget was $30 so if he wants something more to add up to $30, how can I refuse him that? He's a smart shopper! I love it. Sometimes God gives me strokes of sheer brilliance and that was one of the things he gave me.
For Gregory and his disability, it's all about having control. Thank goodness I'm not a control freak because this relationship could never work so well otherwise. I try to find ways to give him control of his own life. I think he really likes having some control and really, he should have some control over himself.
Alright, time to get ready for work. We are going to walk today. Yipppppeeeee!!! Tonight I'm signing up at the rec center and I'm going to start working out every night after work. I'm going to see about a tai chi class or yoga..not sure which yet. I'd also like to pick belly dancing back up again. Will have to see. Weight lifting and toning first!!!
Monday, September 8, 2008
Confessions of a Single 30-something
I haven't blogged in a long while on Blogger. I thought it might be fun to revisit. I do a lot of blogging on myspace and it's fun but I'd like to expand my reading audience a little bit.
I hope to use this blog to give you a picture of my life as a single 30-something mom. I've been single for 9 years and have introspectively learned a lot about single life and about myself through blogging.
Your feedback is always welcome.
I hope to use this blog to give you a picture of my life as a single 30-something mom. I've been single for 9 years and have introspectively learned a lot about single life and about myself through blogging.
Your feedback is always welcome.
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